Sabotage
It came from out 
Of somewhere...
A place deep within
You, never let you 
Settle in with the thought
Of us being close friends
Every laugh, every tear,
Every wrinkled brow, every smile
Never fully developed, always stopped Before it matured 
Because you never felt
The authenticity of any of it
How can I realistically
Have a rapport with you
This affinity is bogus
What bond? 
I bet if pulled hard
Enough separation 
Will occur
It did
But not because of
The weakness or
Imitation of camaraderie
According to you
It can not be
Bona fide harmony
At someone
Else's expense 
I dare us feel anything
Knowing that she
Wouldn't approve
Knowing that she 
Couldn't handle it
Knowing that she
Would feel betrayed
I dare us carry on
Like we did
Share what we did
Be there for one
Another like we were
Challenge each other
Like we did
Care like we do
Love like we have
The unmitigated
Audacity to 
Be intimate like
Friends should
Never settled with
You, never fully
Blossomed within
Because she was always
Around pointing
An accusatory finger
Pushing that thorn
Deeper into your
Flesh
I on the other hand
Allowed it to
Develop 
Only to be
Told to abort
It at full term
Sabotage
Indeed

- Cassie 2018