I changed my whole life 
I did it for myself 
I don’t have a wife 
Still having nightmares 
I can’t sleep at night 
Member I got stabbed up with a knife
Praying to god I don’t loose my life 
Still missing Leila 
She suppose to be my wife 
I’ll never forgive myself 
I cheated and left her 
Ever since then my life ain’t been right 
I wish she was there on them lonely nights 
I really wish she was there to hold me tight 
I tell her we can be something nice 
Something real fye 
If I could go back in the past I would’ve treated her right 
Now I’m locked up sleeping with my knife
Praying every night I don’t loose my life
No commissary no visitations 
Sometimes it gets real lonely 
Got me feeling like no one really loves me
Got me feeling like I should pick up this knife 
And end my life