I’m hanging around on a dating

In a state

Keyboards covered in tobacco, crisps, sticky with beer

Telling someone I like to climb mountains,

I’m calm and sensitive I’m in  control and I’m solvent

But I’m typing.. words …I can’t ….see

And I’m starting to spill truths

“Divorced” “Kids”

“Oh “

I like betting, drinking, smoking ,doing most things to stop me thinking or feeling

“Mmm”

Kids miles away, and I’m up in the air

………..

Are you still there?