I don't know.. my life seems out of my control... It's no longer mine it's in the hands of those around me and the governing forces that keep me in line.. I just don't know.. it feels so weird to be sober.... So... Weird... Its not normal for me to fall asleep in a natural way. It almost feels unnatural.. my addiction has become the ruling figure in my life not my emotions,love or financial stability.. I'm scared my life will no longer exist... I'm scared I won't be able to stop and they will put me back in prison... Some may not believe but it's in my brain... It's a sick disease in my brain and I beg God to help me but there seems no light at the end of this tunnel.... But tomorrow keeps coming....