A Letter to my Soul. 

 

 

 

It was around summertime.  I was driving up County Road 99  in Woodland, CA roughly 10 miles north of Davis, CA.

 

I was thinking about life . 

 

I was thinking about how beautiful life really is and at the same time how hard life can really be. 

 

I was thinking about how those stones in life can cause doubt. The rocks that can cause pain. The boulders that hinder you from a meaningful purpose. 

 

I was thinking about all the many possibilities - all the connections we have with people and the world around us. 

 

Could it be ? Yes it was ! 

 

I was lost...

 

I was scared...

 

I was sad...

 

It was in this next moment that I found a glimpse of what true happiness looked like. A glimpse of a meaningful purpose. I could see for the first time in a long time. 

 

I looked up from the depths of deep thought. I began to gaze through a limescale stained glass window. It was through this particular lens that I witnessed the most beautiful natural display. 

 

The display was so beautiful that my eyes understood the meaning of admiration. My eyes understood the meaning of comeliness. This natural display became satisfying with each fading wink. 

 

I could see for the first time in a long time. 

 

I began to smile...

 

A field full of sunflowers!

 

I was found!

 

I was brave!

 

I was happy!

 

Amongst the thousands of sunflowers that stood so tall . Stretching , wanting , longing for their warmth. Longing for the attention from their source of love. 

 

There stood only one that I could see. For all were buttered yellow . All But one . 

 

She made my heart believe that sight was possible inside a soul so dark. It was this sunflower that gave my heart sight to see the beauty of day. 

 

I could see  for the first time in a long time. 

 

 

I truthfully believe that In our life there are many moments that define us. 

These moments describe who we really are under our hardened - enculturated surface. 

 

So here ! Take my moment. 

I give it to you ..... My moment.  Without hesitation. My moment of happiness. 

 

By Timothy David Ashe .