9/23/18

I walked into the ocean. Wanting to die, maybe.
No. Just wanting to feel something.
Be fearless.
And I was stung. But that's what I wanted wasn't it?
I want to go back in and dive under and be fearless. And feel all there is to feel. I want to disappear from all eyes and embrace every sensation there is to take away what I'm feeling now.
Scare people a little bit, make someone feel as if they've lost me for a second.
But there's no one here to notice my absence or to crave my company.
No one to appreciate what I had to offer before I disappeared underneath the dark water.