My Lies, Our Love, from a Ghost

Dedicated to Jennifer Mikelait - my life's heartbreak

 

My Love. A Ghost.

 

Crushed. Confused. Abandoned.

Hurt by a hand I held so tight.

Love, this apparition conjured.

Tainted love a poisoned soul, it withered and died inside.

The fatal flaw I didn't see, when I saw you and you saw me.

Love once, then gone the next, sold my soul to her trust.

I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do.

Does she feel this love for me, for i should be down on one knee.

I don't know if it's your denying, You'll do, or am I the problem.

I step forward to take it all, i'll fix my Ill but it will take a while and I won't stop trying.

I turn to you, you I should not fear me for your the one that drags me here.

Carve my words Into knives of fear that wounded my heart.

I didn't see it coming, betrayed, she I had confided in,without me she be left on the street with he kids, not so neat.

Staabbing me stabbing me from where I could not see

Told told told I'm the big dummy,

From heaven to hell our love betrayed

Hands softly held our hearts so dear

Fear turn hands to stone and bleed

Loves death upon the house, upon our bed

Loves had died inside your head

Truths turned round and round in the tornado

Lies and blame never had it finer.

Our love dead over a few dollars.

Scarification of our souls. They be dying

Money and power snapped your favor

You get yours now and mine for neither.

A toddler mind come to take my love away.

Unfair control I must stay to keep your love from stray.

Bow and fuel the narcissist, pain is felt all about such a risk.

I can stay if you make your wish, I can stay to be ruled by your fist.

Love it drizzled down the drain

Turned to glue, demanding I stick me here.

All the good times and the love, it breaks my being to be fooled it was.

A lie, some blame and lots shaming, I break into a nightmare rage

So fast you said you will leave, To air a feeling to not be agreed

I find im not allowed to breath, she is near and stinks like famine.

Hher leaving ensnared in a toxic thing, Automatic hurt you jerk like my cock or a rock.

Leaving was you first punishment

Leaving is what you said you would

Leaving me is what you said you do, leaving me is what I did, no go and scratch you scabbed head