I guess i always find ways to feel tears on my cheeks. But i shouldn't. I find ways to be sad, to hate myself. But then you take me in your arms and suddenly, despite all the pain from before, i feel at peace and i know i love you more than i have ever loved anything, i know i love all the parts of you and i am ready to love you more and more with each passing day. You take me in your arms and i know this love is not easy, not easy at all, but it is worth to fight through the wars of my own mind if it means i can wake up another morning next to your sleeping body. I take the train back to you anytime i can, i wish for you each time before i close my eyes and fall asleep in your black pullover. I fell in love with your trembling body and i wish to hold it all the time to make peace in your heavy mind even if you have broke my heart already, i know i can love you more because each time you break it you make sure to make it whole again. maybe my heart just gets broken too easily, i know i am a fragile woman, i will never deny that. i know that my sensibility is a trap but it is also a gift that i carry with me. my heart pours itself to you so easily that there is no bridge needed between us, there is only love, love, love and i will take care of my heart, i will become stronger than before. i want to be able to love without my bones breaking. i used to believe that love is supposed to break you more than it should make you whole, but not anymore.
i see you in the morning how you drink your coffee and sometimes put honey inside if you need your day to be a little sweeter. i see you how you play the guitar, you touch it like it is a body, like it is a soul. i see you how you try to be a better person, finally you try that for yourself too. and as i watch your being, i fall deeper in love and i know my ribcage is strong enough not to break when you are next to me and you take me like the only person you will ever love. the only person you have ever loved, even. i am so happy you chose me, i cannot believe you love me. i cannot believe you came back to me, that you took my hand and squeezed it, proclaimed it as a partner in all your future travels. i knew i love you when you were melting in the couch when we took some magic together and you saw the world like never before. i knew i love you when we wanted to take a bath in my previous flat but the water was too cold so we tried hard to make it warm but finally decided to just take the weed and smoke it in the living room. i knew i love you when we danced together to Mr. Magic Man on the concert in Ljubljana. I know i love you when you teach me how to drive the car and i am not afraid to take the wheel. there are so many moments when i know i love you and each of those fullfils me, like i am a thirsty traveller in a desert and you are the lonely oasis, giving me power, giving me the water of life. i know i love you because i see the future with children and with roadtrips and music, oh god, the music everywhere. you squeeze my hand and we travel together on this incredible road until death do us part.