Like I don't feel as bad as I usually do

But I'm still bummed out I can't even explain it

Im sitting here like damn all of this is really true

Im so used to the bullshit I get numbed

With every situation

Sitting here contemplating 

Like damn I still got feelings for him

One of the seven deadliest sins

Adulterer, homewrecker, slut

All this shit got me stuck in a rut

And to think all of this

Could have been covered up, avoided

If I hadn't sucked on this man's neck

A true day I will never forget

I tell my mother and I can only hear her regret

Of having me

And to think

If I hadn't sucked on this man's neck

The true kiss of death

Scenario has me in awe

I cannot catch my breath

I just need GOD to breathe air

Into me

Help me return to believe

Begin to truely see

That you are all I need

In my life

And if a man

Truely wishes to make me

His wife

He gotta get through you

To reach me

Father art thou in heaven?

Please answer my plee

Help me on my mission