Struggle Not to Fall Again
It's back
Fingers twitch
Eyes wont focus
Im shaking
I want it...I need it...
The craving...
An addiction that I'll never be free from
I kid myself thinking I've overcome it...
It always returns
If I give in the pain will subside, but the shame will haunt me
I know I must resist...
But
My blood, like thousands of worms struggling to break through to the surface
It hurts...
...I need it...
...help...make it stop..
make my mind stop...