I really don't want to live
Lost in my head again
Want to go out like my name is Van Gogh
Do you understand it yeah

Put some distance between me and her
Maybe she would miss me enough to come back
The thought of her is killing me
I took more medicine but it's still hurts

It doesn't matter what I do
Self destruction is always the easier way
You can hate me all you want but it's
It's the truth and you know it
Everything goes good just for me the mess myself up
This isn't the decision I wanted

I really don't want to live
Lost in my head again
Want to go out like my name is Van Gogh
Do you understand it yeah

Put some distance between me and her
For I don't end up messing up her life
I wish I could be a better human
I tried to change but I end up back here

It doesn't matter what I do
Self destruction is always the easier way
Two years of not taking care of myself
Spitting out blood throwing it up it's alright
One more year and I'm out of this
The only reason I had is gone
The glowing children tell me that she's not coming
So I'll wait in this world Lighthouse reborn in ready to die