I didn't know how to live

Stuck in a continuous cycle

Being my own worst captive

The devil had a hold, i couldn't break free

The devil was in control

And that's when you decided to leave me

I sat and shot and shot some more

I didn't know what to do, didnt know how to stop 

Then i woke up and realized it wasn't a dream

I had lost the man who ever meant something to me

All because of this stupid fucking disease

I cried and cried some more, sick and tired of being sick and tired

Loosing the only man i ever admired.

I honestly thank you because you were the reason i began to feel inspired

I begged and pleaded, the day finally came 

When i got clean, refocused and then remeeted. 

So many thought running through my head, its true what they say

Many questions are always left unsaid

I'll be alright, I'll be fine for me to realize that this is the end

I just hope someday you'll realize we were never just friends.

You call me your ride or die but you were never mine, lets be honest

You left me  during my darkest time

A year and a half later, the thought of you still makes me cry

I feel so sick knowing its my fault in letting the relationship die

But, it's the best thing you did for me, the girl you once knew

Is a girl i no longer wanted to be, from the deepest of my heart

I thank you for opening my eyes , ill always have love for you 

But now it's time for me to say goodbye.