A recurring dream of anyone but you

To be loved, seduced, wanted

To be intimate in a way you can’t provide

There’s so much to life I’m missing

 

The usual comforts push away the desire,

Schedules forbid connection;

Sparks fly, 

The flame grows, 

And something forces us back together

 

I push you away for a reason

We only share the same space

Fleeting chemistry pulls us together only for a moment

I need more than that

 

Is it just me,

Questioning a simple need 

I play the part, 

I have it under control,

It doesn’t bother me

 

It gets out of hand, 

I ask friends for advice, 

They see struggle, 

The end of us is in sight

 

We agree that communication is key

One of many talks will get us through 

A support system is put into place 

We open up and tell the truth

 

We are both struggling, 

And share the blame

The healing is only beginning, 

And we are on the upswing 

If only for a moment.

 

Looking back on a poem from 2017 and some things never change...