the pain gets too overwhelming

i find myself sitting alone dwelling 

on the past life that led me to drugs

i sit wondering where i went wrong, lost all my friends; im an outcast, i dont belong

and i dont understand why god kept me living

what does all he suffering bring but an eternal hell thatg suffocates me

losing all efforts, it feels like i cant breathe

and the battle goes on without stop

constantly crying and when you ask me whats wrong ill keep on denying that im hurting inside

bottled up emotions, broken promises, and no devotion is all ive ever known

so i feel like theres no point in going on

but everyone tells me to just stay strong

when they really have no clue what im going through