Why do you deny me this?

My separation, my desire to be left alone.

Why do you invade my life?

Like a parasite, you drink me dry.

I want to feel myself, my emotions.

I want to know who I am and who I want to become.

Yet.

Every time you bring my world crashing down.

Falling, breaking, shattering you worm your way back.

You did no wrongs is what is forever repeated.

You do it out of love is what you say.

But to me, your love is twisted, depraved, and only of self-interest.

If you truly cared, you'd know.

But you only want to make yourself feel better.

Everything is fine if you're happy.

But what if I want to see what happiness feels like.

What if I want to try to be human, rather than an object.

Yet still, you deny me even this.

You've done no wrongs, so will never understand.

And I am left to once again pick up the fragments left behind.

I am tired of putting myself back together.

I am tired of being no one.

I am tired of being used, abused, and forsaken.

I will not be denied again.

I will not be denied my truth, my life, my dreams.

I will not cater to your self serving nature.

I will be me and forever only me.