what will you do 
him sitting across from you
talking bad about me
even though it's truthful

will you stop him
because he doesn't know me
or will you just sit there content
with silent Glee

will you stop and think 
about the times we shared. 
like the times on the blanket
outside the open air

Boom! Crack! 
as the colors clash
radiance, truly brilliant
as I see them from your back

reflecting off your brown eyes 
patterns of stars and flowers
as you sit one hand behind
soaking up the sky like a dye. 

or will you think of the kiss we shared
with tension running high
we did it without a care
in a starry, cat running in the parking lot, filled night

right now we can't talk
but know, I remember it all.
as I sit, with tears in my eyes
wishing we could
but I will just smother you. 

I've kept you caged
with my lock and key
behind a wall of guilt
filling you with misery

now youre free 
so hopefully you can see
through the Tangled webs
that we call treachery. 

it's too soon for me
sitting and wallowing 
too soon to be
truly happy

so sometimes I'll sit in silence
left alone with my thoughts
thinking maybe this is as hard for you
and that curse, it sucks. 

today the cold feels hot
and the colors
usually vivid
today theyre not.

breaking down In the shower,
my eyes are bloodshot
so my head is lowered
"fake it till you make it"
"stand like a tower"

fine I will, but not today
these are my thoughts
these are my feelings
and they're not going to be ignored

everything hurts
but to let you be happy
I'll do what I promised
and continue forward

that's what you deserve
after all we've been through
so hopefully see you soon.
my donut, my baby girl, the excitement of my life
hoping this path will cross with yours
when you're ready for everything.