What am I suppose to do

This question keeps nagging 

My brain has stopped answering

My faith is taking over this state

Still the queries linger, up and down

With the blood it circulates around

My heart answered wait the wait

My soul found it difficult, thinking it too late

Will the other needle move backward

As the needle at my end moves forward

Are people at the other end biased and scared

Am I, as i the only people at this end, stay hopeful always

Will it ever strike twelve, the needles to become one

Will the life take a complete turn to make my clock run

For better days and happiness to always sway

Loneliness grips the needle where i dwell

Just counting years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds, milliseconds 

But the other needle never superimposes one to become twelve

Such jumbled up thoughts sending rage, fury, sorrow and me colliding, collapsing yet standing walking

Ah! The pain and that turmoil that sneaks into my ears with a devilish roar

Erupting many volcanoes in a second destroying tranquil heart

If you quit, let me know, you ain't a messiah, as people say so

I can't quit, cos my journey roller coastering and moved bumping ahead

A no backward move zone comprehends my sleeping sheepish soul

If you roller coastering backwards as the others called so, just lemme know, just lemme know, just lemme know.

I'm stuck forever at the hour zero and the ride's bumping without driver 

Oh let the hour come, the merrier days much awaited

Waiting the long awaited never ending wait, seems eternity