3/15/2020

My heart swells with so much love for you that I can't understand why you can't understand.
I bask in your love for me, soaking up every touch of your hand.
My mind fights day and night to name the reasons you could love me, I can't understand, I can't understand.
My mouth opens and I yell at you but it's all because I long for you to understand, you just can't, you just can't.
I'd give my whole life for you, demonstrating my love for you in the things I do that you'll notice if I point them out to you.
That's not right, I know you notice but I need some truth, make it known, show me when I make love to you.
Don't fear me for the enormous amount of emotion I feel but I pray and I pray that you'll open up to me - but in the end let it be God's will.
I know I can come off so strong but it's not all my fault, admit your faults. You have the key to unlock all of my vaults. Please dig in deep, dig down, reflect on yourself, realize it's not always all of my fault.
Hear me cry, look to God for some description of my emotions and traits and reactions to the ways that you speak to me, that you look at me, that you fail to prove to me.
I am a human, I am imperfect, I am confused, I am worthless. No I am not wortless. But I feel worthless when you yell at me, when you raise hell at me, when you mock me, when you neglect me. Please protect me.
Please open up your eyes to me, I make time for you. I have time for you. I love you.
Open up your mind and your time to me, express your emotions to me. You have never seen the part of me dying in the ocean, drowning in my emotion, craving some kind of potion to regenerate my soul.
I was dying and now although I see that it's only important that God takes care of me, I ask that you understand, be a man, hold my hand.
Treat me like glass when I am breaking like glass. I'm fading, disintegrating, my emaciated yearning for your understanding, open up your arms, guide me to your landing.
You're hurting me, you're bringing me back down to where I was fading, you see me as unbreakable, unshakable, but when you lash out at me, you disintegrate me, yeah you win. You shake me.
Open your blue green eyes and look into mine, I never mean to hurt you, no plans to desert you.
My soul only aches and asks for you to understand, admit your faults, hold me close, be a man, guide me to my place and hold my hand.