I know this isn't what you want to hear
I know my mind doesn't make sense right now
I've been questioning if I should even go on
I've been so numb 

I think after July I'll say goodbye 
I don't see anything getting better 
I've been abused in every way
No one gets a shit about the grave I've been digging

I know you don't read my poems 
So you don't have to act like you do
See I'm just wanting someone who actually cares
Goddamn this is fucking with me 
How is it the only human that loved me had to die 

It's not fair why can I just hold on to someone 
I know this isn't okay 
See I'm just want someone who actually cares
No one has to say anything their actions prove it