I am not okay

Right now

 

And it's hard

Because I feel like I screamed

"I will not be okay, if you do this,

Please don't"

 

And it's so hard to say that, ever

But I did

Over and over 

And you did it anyway, all of you

 

Each one of you

Independently decided

To ignore that statement

Other things were more important

 

And perhaps they were

I certainly can't offer and unbiased opinion

 

But now I am not okay

 

I am so very not okay

You took the last of my ability

To cope

My last bit of sanity

 

I don't give up

Because it never really feels like an option

But I am not okay

And you chose to make me not okay

 

You weighed the options

And decided my being not okay

Was acceptable

You made me a casualty

 

I am not okay