She walked out and suddenly felt all alone

She had opened herself up again when she promised herself she never would

He made her feel safe, he made her feel wanted, her made her get over obstacles, he made her a better her

Why then did she feel all alone again

She was tired of having to fight for five minutes, she was tired of the switching schedules, she was tired of no time at all

She felt herself falling deeper and deeper into the same hole she had been in too many times

She knew who she was becoming, yet she was already too far gone to care

She didn’t want to do anything

She wanted to lay in bed and sleep her entire day away

She didn’t want to use the energy to go see him

She had already given up

Maybe it was too good to be true

Maybe she had been right before

Not everyone gets a happy ever after

Not everyone can put the past behind them

Old characteristics, habits, thoughts, and feeling tend to creep back in

Sometimes it’s too slowly to even make her notice

Or maybe it’s so fast she never saw it coming

Maybe she will always be too damaged to fix

It was today that she realized it was all over

She didn’t know what even happened

This had been the happiest she could remember herself, so when did it all go wrong

All she wanted was to be able to have a day like they did a year ago falling in love

She needed a morning where they laid on the dock and she talked nonstop about everything in her head, everything in her heart

That didn’t seem obtainable anymore, so she held it all in and slowly faded into the distance

She began removing herself from the picture

She began to rely on finding safety in herself again, not others

She was always there, while others always left

She will always be her biggest critic, her biggest supporter, her own stability

The only thing she knew for sure is that she would always be there to feel everything

She was her only absolute