Inside I’m breaking, I’m aching, in falling apart
The mess in my head is a real work of art
I’d unravel this mess but where would I start
Picked away at the seams bit by bit, part by part

The confusions, delusions
I just think what I have
But then thinking and sinking
I start to feel sad
Then with sadness there’s madness
And then I feel bad
These confusions, delusions are driving me mad

Its a battle I’m facing, but not facing alone
There are others who suffer so why should I moan
I have a wife who I’m hurting
I see pain in her face
From the things that I do and decisions I make

She stands by my decisions and walks by my side
But still my emotions I keep quite and hide
Because I see that she’s hurting, I can’t hurt her no more
So I choose to keep quite and look to the floor

Just stop for a minute
Take a breath, take it in
The skies may be cloudy
But with a fight I can win
Till the grey skies turn blue
And a rainbow un-hides
I just need to be brave
And swallow my pride.

I need to keep talking
It’s the best thing to do
Because keeping things in is no good for you
Mental exclusion feels as if your alone
Head held underwater
Like your going to drown

But if talking was easy
I’d do it in a shot
With so much jumbled
I can’t deal with the lot
So I’m taking things steady
Unravelling my mind
To understand better
One step at a time

© curiousdud3 06/2020