What was but never was

 

David had taken his A's and got straight A's in Maths, Higher Maths, Chemistry, Physics and Biology, he was studying to take early entry exams for Oxford University. Where he wanted to study Medical Research as first choice.

 

I wanted to drive you

To great halls in Oxford

I wanted to see your

Rundown wee house

That you studied in.

 

I wanted to see

The posters you’d chosen

Bands laughed at

Cause they weren’t Bob Dylan

I wanted to see you grow.

 

I wanted to drive you

To mysterious places

Show you things

Of beauty and light

Help your educational fight.

 

I’d help you find a job

While the study was halted

I’d still hug you resulting

As my pride in you

Washed my life upward

 

I’d be nice to your lovely

Long distance girlfriend

I’d cook us meals full

Of chilli and beans

It’d all be exalted.

 

I’d laugh as your mates

Came to get you

Take you to the pub

To see some band

Or just have a drink.

 

I’d bollock you when

Your breath smelled of weed

I’d always love you

My beautiful seed

As I watched you read.

 

Finally I’d come

When you donned

That great gown

Maybe a first

Now I’ll never see.

 

You wanted Doctor

Before your name.

You loved all and

Wanted to help

Just to help.

 

I’d take you to stand

On great mountains,

Standing on snow

Looking out to the sea

Now it’ll never be so.

 

I’d marvel as your

Partners stomach expanded

I’d still be young

Captured from you

Waiting to be grandad.

 

But down the street

The dogs were barking

I was too love blind

To hear the warning

The hell hounds were telling me.