Down in the depths of the deep blue sea
Lies my heart- not cold and unforgiving
But rather open, ready to take you in
And keep you comfortable
Well, saing it now, that still sounds creepy
But you know what I mean
I hope
Anyway
Some days, I am the negative side of the ocean
And you may drown just trying to figure me out
Don't worry
I try my best to leave everybody alone
When I know I am not well
I do not wish harm upon anyone
I just hurt sometimes
And it hurts sometimes
And sometimes, I swallow myself
And drown in my own regrets
While my fears and guilts grab hold
And tear me limb from limb
Until my thoughts are all that is left
I am not but my thoughts
I am not my thoughts
I am not my thoughts
Repitition.
Discipline
Remember your discipline.
You'll get through this
Now get up
Keep fighting
You beautiful soul
Keep fighting!
You've got the strength
You can do this!
Don't give up!

-As always, my scattered mind began in one area of thought process, and ended up in another. I love it and I hate it. I feel it may be hard for some to understand. If you feel what I feel, thank you <3 There's just so many random thoughts that bubble up and take over while I spill them into my little laptop notepad.