Trying to understand
These thoughts running through my head
Many words that could be spoken
But they’re better left unsaid
The truth is way too painful
No pill can take away the pain
I could paint a perfect picture
But in turmoil I remain
Locked away the feelings 
Just hiding from the world
Made myself a prisoner
My parole has always failed
Emotions causing riots
Reacting with my brain
Could bang my head against a wall
It's driving me insane
Inside it’s loud.....so noisy
But outside I have no sound
Roaming around like a stray puppy
Just hoping to be found
But my path, it isn’t ending
In fact it’s only just begun
Because I’m gaining strength
I’m rising
There are battles to be won

© curiousdud3 02/2021