When you told me you thought you were dying
You grabbed my hand in desperation almost crying
You took me outside alone to tell me ..
I asked your reasons you couldn't tell me
I looked at you why were you shaking
You told me some things that  didnt seem to fit
You confessed you had a habit but still that wasn't it
You repeated to me "im dying "
As I write this I'm crying
And this is over two/three years ago
Youv achieved so much since then I know
I actually laughed with you hugged you three months ago
I got a shocking phone call two weeks ago
I was at your funeral five days ago
My heart almost stopped when I heard your heart had stopped

And they couldn't bring you back
But they tryed
As you predicted They gathered your family to tell them you died


I told you in the past one day I will meet your mum and tell her she raised  a man so beautiful
This I did ..I didnt expect to tell her at your funeral
I thought maybe it would be at a celebration
Not as a comforting gesture in attempt to compensate her devastation
Also I met your dad and brother
People from your past and of now
Impossible to summ  up your existence short time so much to cover
You said some lovely things we would compliment eachother
What a man
What a big heart
Such a heart so full it overwhelmed your body

Loved and loved back by everybody
Beautiful musical lyrical soul
Back in God's arms
In many lives now a hole

A spirit so strong like yours does not disappear
Alive are your words 
Your music we hear
Words and music are eternal
I'm learning about you so much iv discovered
Be free my soul brother daffodil
Beloved