Disappointed myself as usual 

Appointments I can't seem to attend.

Achievements I failed to achieve on my own

Important concepts were out of my reach.

Practise what you preach, I will do that but some other time.

Hypocrisy is a philosophy I need to look into,

Lately, it doesn't feel authentic.

Latent learning seems to be idealistic.

Pointing fingers while three of them point back.

What I saw in the mirror, will forever linger in my mind,

“Are they proud of me?”, a rhetorical question in some sense.

Same spotlight, Self-hatred scolded me to the corner.

I need some order, chaos is overwhelming.

Look again things are not the same, 

Underwhelming can be monotonous.

My peers got it together; their lives are glamorous.

I should have done this, forever regretting it.

Change the genre to another scenery.

Motivational battery needs changing,

Purpose is meaningless without passion.