its different this time. 

let me explain what i mean

first, I'm back, maybe not for long but hi

Im hurting my body 

people tell me to stop because of the long term effects

i don't care

i cant stop, even if i tried

i know what you're thinking, everyone does this

no, im not talking about vaping

im talking about the guilt i feel 

after eating or drinking

certain things shouldn't go in my body, so i get rid of them

don't ask me how i do it, we arent that close yet.

i wish things were different, but they arent and its okay

im still young, im still learning

learning, crying, comparing myself to others

tricks to stay the way i am

"no one likes me because of how i look"

a simple phrase, its easy to say multiple times in the mirror

everyday just gets worse