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Why Am I Here?

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Once upon a time

There was an ordinary woman

Who lived an ordinary life

She married, had a family

Was a quiet, compliant wife

 

Then, quite suddenly, her husband

Of many years, grew ill and died

It was a time of shock and sadness

But she was brave and strong

Struggling on, in life’s injury time

A friend, a mum a grandma

 

All was well, until she changed, became confused

Thought she was losing her mind

While she was, losing her memory

There would be questions, questions…

Answers were met with

Another question…or confusion

 

There were tests and more tests

Then finally, a new doctor said

‘You have Dementia.’

The woman didn’t really understand, so…

He gave her lots of information

Too much information, pages of information

Which only caused more confusion

 

But help was to be at hand!

The woman was promised a CARE PLAN!

When the CARE PLAN arrived

IT WAS EMPTY!

This made the woman’s daughter cross

But the woman and her family

Struggled on alone

Everyone did their best

 

Until one day everything went wrong!

The woman, alone in her house, fell

Although she was in a lot of pain

She managed to get to a doctor

Who said she was fine,

But gave her some pain-killers

 

The pain grew very great

And although she had Dementia

That night she called an ambulance,

And was taken to Hospital

An X-Ray showed a broken bone; which healed

But no-one could mend her broken memory

The confusion grew worse, so she never returned,

To her lovely home

 

Her next home was called a CARE HOME

Perhaps here she would find some care

Which she did, but…

As the years passed by, the Dementia worsened

With it came confusion, beyond confusion

Frustration, fear and then anger

The anger made her Rage!

 

The woman could not remember

Where she was in her life

Was she a child? She wondered.

‘Where are my parents?’ she asked?

‘Am I an orphan?’ ‘Is that why I’m here?’

 

Her children visited, then one sad day;

She no longer knew who they were

‘I’m not your mother!’ she angrily told her daughter

‘I don’t know who you are!’

The daughter left, dismissed

Wearing a mask, of frozen tears

 

These were dark, difficult days

The woman grew more frail

As she neared the end of her life

Her frailty increased and her anger diminished

Although she struggled to recognise visitors

Occasionally she could see her little girl

In the face of her grown up daughter

 

As the woman’s life ebbed away

A great calm descended upon her

Now at peace

She fell into a deep, deep sleep

Then, early one spring morning

Her soul quietly left her tired body

As it did so, the room filled with sunshine

🌷(7)

◄ Painting the Day in Rhyme

February ►

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Brenda Wells

Thu 10th Feb 2022 13:39

Thanks to Stephen G, Stephen A and John for your thoughts. I was a little apprehensive about posting this, wondering if it was too long or too personal, your comments have confirmed that there was a value to others, in the sharing of it.

It is an account of aspects of my mother's four year struggle with Dementia, A tough time for all. On the morning of her death, a few years ago in April, the weather did change, the sun shone and we had a very fine spring.

The photograph that I have used was taken during the afternoon of that sad day, as I walked through the woods, finding some comfort in the quiet, the peace and the river.

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John Botterill

Wed 9th Feb 2022 22:41

I found this poem extremely moving, Brenda. The sunshine coming through at the end of the poem was as uplifting as the rest of the poem was powerful, disturbing and, obviously, true. I agree. I this poem should be published and shared more widely.

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Stephen Atkinson

Wed 9th Feb 2022 22:01

Sadly true, yet uplifting. A great write, Brenda.

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Stephen Gospage

Wed 9th Feb 2022 21:28

I am sure this poem is a labour of love, Brenda. It is a real achievement and is so resonant of the different stages that we went through with my mother and mother-in-law. The end is inspiring and the poem will be a source of hope and mutual understanding for so many people. It deserves to be widely read.

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