You pushed so hard

To get your own way

You never seemed to understand

Or perhaps it was me

Who never understood

How hard you found it

To be a man

 

Don’t get me wrong

You were big and strong

But inside you struggled

Somehow

You didn’t belong

 

I wish that you could have spoken to me

I wanted to take your shattered parts

Glue them together

With the love from my heart

 

We could have worked together

The pieces you lost could have been filled in with care

And we would never have

Gone there

 

Instead you tried to break me down too

Drilled into my heart

Like you were drilling for oil

Hammered my brain

Like clearing a drain

 

You dug in deep

Picked at my scars

And watched them bleed

As you soaked up my tears

With a weird kind of greed

And a disturbing need

 

I thought you were broken

Maybe just a small crack

I was sure I could fix you

All you needed was love

To get you back on track

It was up to me

To pick up the slack

 

I was young and naive

I was needy too

So it fulfilled a need

To be your glue

It took me a while

To smell the coffee

But when I awoke

I knew we’d walked our last mile

There was nothing in me

That could fill your void

There was nothing in you

That could fill my void

 

Now I am older

I make more noise

I so very happy to make a fuss

Finally, I can say

That I’ve got myself sussed

The best thing I’ve learnt

 

Is

That

Self love

is a

Must

 

I hope you have managed

To make your own glue

I hope you have learnt

It’s OK to be you

As long as the you

Is the one that is true.

 

C.K. 22