Today is the day I lost you, 

Minus ten years I started losing myself

And dedicated to a loss I wish I could speak of. 

Memories fade but I still remember 

The time and what you last said. 

“Where are you going?”, but where did you go?

You were right there then you were.

I remember breaking down at school

Just glued on, to “it's my fault you got sick”.

 You left, and I tried to keep it cool, 

But sad thoughts caught up along the way,

I looked for possibility of you coming back, 

But instead I discovered guilt lasting a decade. 

Today feels like a parade memorial to fading scars. 

I‘m so desensitized to pain I could escape, but how can I?

When these are memories l remember you by , 

It's true that even sad people have happy moments. 

"that's my boy", was the best feeling I remember

For once I made you proud, Now it's just failures,

Just a lost cause to a future I don't know. 

I wish you and I could feel proud again somehow, 

Somewhere, I hope in the end we will be.