It’s the same each morning

My body never gets a warning

My mind is fresh and full of life

I think I’ll be happy, I actually might

I’m on top of the world, you can’t bring me down

Try all you want, I’m never touching the ground

I live in euphoria, I’m not coming home

Don’t try calling me, I’m not answering the phone

I’m heavily addicted to this lifestyle

Everyone wants me in exile

I feed off this feeling

Why would I ever need healing?

 

Sadly the feeling has to end

In the evenings are when I try to pretend

It’s all my energy you drink

You only give me seconds to think

I think about this and that

I think about books, the color red, babies, and cats

Did I feed my dog?

Am I doing a good job?

I ponder and ponder on the same thoughts

And that’s when I desire shots

I pound them back one by one

Won’t you join me? Don’t I sound like fun?

 

After all the shaking, racing thoughts, and panic is over

Melancholy hunts me down to crossover

This feeling seeps in from under my door

It attacks me like a wild boar

I contemplate life as the sun disappears

I sit in darkness while my mind slows down its gears

Every night it's a little surprise

Every night I think about my demise

I love the white of my skin

I love when the dip, dip begins

But that won’t last much longer

I tell myself tomorrow I’ll be stronger

 

I’ll pray tomorrow won’t be a repeat

But I’m a cog in the system that I can’t defeat

Tomorrow I’ll play another round of this game

I only have myself to blame

I’ll cry less and wear my favorite sweater

Please believe in me, I will be better

Please hold my hand and never let me go

You’re so good at this, won’t you let me borrow?

I want to be better for those I love

I don’t want to die and be deposed of

Oh please, oh please find me a cure

I don’t want this illness, I don’t love myself anymore

 

But the next day when I wake up, I’ll forget all this

Once again I will be living in bliss