All Roads Lead to You

 

People told me it was possible

They said 'you'll know when it feels right'

They didn’t tell me there would be a struggle in finding it

Paved by constant disappointment  and spite

 

Drowning in a sea of confusion

Smashed by perilous waves of doubt

I realised I would first have to love myself 

To be able to survive and get out

 

And then I did—But still the crux in the journey never eased

I worked at every angle

But never could succeed

 

Despite my different approaches

It eventuated with: wrong time, wrong place, wrong person

The situations I found myself in

Just seemed to worsen

 

And so I accepted that I am happy being alone

I let go of imagining an unmistakable connection with a special other

Reciprocation of care without limits

Of unconditional love

And feeling home

 

But perhaps a  feeling of defeat is what is takes

To be able to finally discover the beautifully unimaginable, the precious, the unfelt and unknown

 

After all the pain, the confusion and the false starts

Feeling perpetually unheard and unseen

And everything else I've been through

I know it's all worth it

Because it's brought me to exactly where I'm meant to me

These roads led me to you