What if this isn’t what I want

What if I’m destined for more

For someone that doesn’t take me for granted

For the amount of love I always thought I wasn’t worth

A mere 3 weeks away and I don’t know how I feel

Old, bad memories are reignited from a letter I found

The past pain of being ignored for days on end

In the space we shared, our home

I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel

I’m not sure how I’m supposed to cope

To push past it

All I know is the sensation of being overwhelmed

As I sit here, trying to put my thoughts into words

Sadness overtakes me

Feelings of being undervalued, left aside

I don’t know how I’m supposed to heal