It’s been a while

Maybe because I don’t want my words to somehow be found

by those who don’t deserve to read them

The thoughts and feelings I have

constantly being pushed down, by choice, so easily

Fear of judgement, betrayal, loss

Of not being understood how I want to be

Even when something seems so incredibly black and white

When you’ve taken the time to explain it, even colour inside the lines

Someone somehow always finds a way to twist and distort it

To not understand it how you want them to

How you’d hope they would

Day in and day out, I wake up and get the day done

only to go back to sleep and do it all over again

Maybe one day someone will understand

Maybe one day someone will put in the effort to understand

Someday, perhaps.