Shattered dreams, wasted life Life is such a messy but beautiful rhyme scheme Tucked in with a bullet or knife Cracked door, wounded fists Black and white tilted tiles on the floor Our existence is a gift Stop the urge to commit felo-de-se in a feverish haste Life is too precious for you to waste Hoping if there is a switch to turn off or on Depressed mode, traumatized all alone I’ve been in therapy for too long now Talking to myself somehow I find glee and sorrows in medications and IV Been astonishingly reminiscing of enchanting poison ivy In my deep sleep, I lie in my deathbed Don’t ever weep I will forever be in your head Praying for my soul to depart I’m not in my right mentality Been experiencing aching heart, irrational personality I’ve got swollen eyes Due to your intoxicating lies My whole life seems to crash I’ve had a painful and traumatic past Later then I realized, arson comforts me The smell of the black smoke soothes me Counting sheep no longer persuades my sleep I cry myself to sleep My soul agonizes and burns In the scorching heat of Hell I hope they wish me well It is indeed a twisted fate of takes and turns I once remember when I was still alive and breathing You were glad of my existence, of my undying presence Those memories we spent together, thinking Remember when I took you the river It made you shiver But you gently flowed me down the stream I was glowing, shining bright like the moonbeam I treated you like a king But you only treated me like a fool And you only used me as a tool For you to get everything I’m so immune already with your unkind lies Hence, I don’t know how many more turns do I have to twist But why am I facing this bitter strife? I wish It would no longer last I hope this does not last forever Yet it melts me right through my core Oh, is it required for me to feel this every day It still feels like a daydream I’m still facing this unpredictable pain No need for me to repeat it I know I’ll never get over with it You line me up like domino tiles If I’m fragile as fuck, I’ll know I’m fragile Then stacks me up like a deck of cards As I slowly sink from the depths of my despair And realize that it’s not fair, it ain’t fair As soon as you let me fall in one place as planned Like a domino effect I haven’t realized about its cause and effect You didn’t even care enough But for you, there is so many things That I cannot condone or disregard Hope you remember the note I wrote in capital letters “I’LL COME BACK FOR YOU” haunting you alive While karma seems to knock on your door Masterpieces and evidence were all laid on the floor