so, "babe".
im very confused on the
use of this terminology.
and the use of the heart emojis
like were still going to a place
that was so unheard of before is..

C O N F U S I N G

okay, let me back this up some.
ive begun to remember what
it felt like to pour into myself.
to think only of myself.
its a good feeling,

but

i also feel like im falling.
im playing back memories
and falling into what used to be.

im reminiscing.
why?

maybe its because you 
double text me every day.
maybe its because you 
still ask about my day.
 

maybe its because for some reason
you still try and communicate with me.

im not sure how im still your babe.
i think you honestly believe im still
fully yours.
 

you may think im still holding on
to a position that im not sure 
i should fill anymore.
 

you want me to wait for you.
and i dont think im capable.

i wont be capable,
unless i choose to lose 
myself again.
and truthfully,

who really wants that?