Voices.

 

Turmoil inside an ageing mind

Voices screaming shouting arguing.

Tell me what I should think and do.

Showing me everything except the truth

Constantly bringing up my past

Memories of the bad are the only things that seem to last.

Please ask the voices to quieten down.

Please ask the voices to just leave me alone.

 

Discussing everything I ever did wrong.

Reliving all the hurt pain and abuse

Spotlighting the childhood I never had

Even the good they appear to want me to feel bad

Remind me of the absence of parents!

And all the things that were done to me without my consent

Please ask the voices to quieten down.

Please ask the voices to just leave me alone.

 

The voices get even louder when I try to sleep.

Running every detail through my mind of all my nightmares

Driving me to think things I just don't want to think.

To the brink of insanity and the comfort of another drink

My mind just constantly spinning around.

Like a terrifying ride at the local fairground

Please ask the voices to quieten down

Please ask the voices to leave me alone.

 

My head hits the pillow and all I want to do is sleep.

Not see the faces in my eyes through the tears I weep.

I don't want to be angry the way they make me feel.

I have no wish to relive all my fears in every detail.

I want to break free from the voices spell.

Please ask the voices to quieten down.

Please ask the voices to leave me alone.

 

I feel like I've finally gone mad because they won't quieten down.

I have hit the bottom of the well I cannot go any further down.

They have talked for so long I have forgotten what I used to be.

I am desperate for some happiness but not 24/7 misery.

Past the constant voices there must be a better me

Please ask the voices to quieten down.

I am begging the voices please leave me alone.

 

Nataiella (2018).