you are someone who wants no one 
but also pulls people back in 
when they decide to leave. 

 

when they no longer have the strength 
to deal with your destruction, 
you don’t mind leaving.

 

and why is that? why do you 
make it so hard for other people? 

 

scratch that…

 

i made a mistake.
i went back.
i did that.

 

i set myself up to have 
my feelings torn apart.

 

he lied to you before.

 

you were all his and then 
you became nothing he wanted.

 

as he always states "he wants no one".
but i don’t believe that and i never will.

 

i never will believe someone who 
looks at women as much as him.
who wants to get the attention of 
other people. 

 

and wants to be what others want.

 

i set myself up.

 

i gave my heart away too soon to 
someone who wasn’t going to do the same.
to someone who didn’t care to tell
me straight forward the first time.

 

so, why did i set myself up again?
why did i decide to punish myself again?

 

though its a crazy thought,
i know that is something

i need to take seriously.