I once had an older sister 

 

I once had an older cousin sister;

Used to come over for summer vacations

and other auspicious occasions,

many times I cried to make you stay

for little longer,

Now you're gone for ever;

To return never.

 

The fun we had at beaches and seashores,

Could I ever forget?

The laughter you had in arcades and photos;

Was it all a facade?

If so you are the actor of the decade!

The times I slept in your lap,

Times I fought you and laugh

Would I ever get those back?

Insomniac now,

Won't you put me back on track (now).

 

Fools! These Skeleton humans couldn't 

Understand your suffering,

But what did you find in death?

Did it promised peace and resolution?

Was it a best friend to you 

than ever I could be?

 

Ah! humans are complex

I think,

Whose speech made you

Lose faith in humanity?

just couldn't accept you

Tied knot with end,futility;

Disappearing reality.

But End gives meaning to us,

Drives us,

Creates obsess

And other needs,

Just to bluff

But Was it soothing enough?

 

The ambitions and happiness;

You talked about,

The scolds and lectures;

We got round about,

The thoughts and imaginations;

You held on without report,

The cheerful air which

Surrounded you a lot and

A lot and lot more,

Were those things too heavy 

Enough to break your hope and neck?

Thoughts ran amok,

Chest feels heavy without flu,

Feelings and Aspirations you had back,

Am I strong enough to carry those

Now?

 

Unfortunate guy,

Couldn't attend your funeral

And grieve and say bye,

Rather I got shocked,

That day not a tear dropped,

Decades ran, eyes dried,

Now There's not a week passes

Without reminiscing those vacations

And poems of tears I write,

Just memories I hold on tight

Until my body turns all pale white

 

The promise you broke 

by not returning the next summer;

Perhaps you forgot,

But I can't,

Here I am about to vent,

It's been 10 summers since

Im 21 from now on

You are still 17, couldn't move on

I'm older than you have ever been!

 

Was there anything I could have done to you?

Oh is there a crack in my neck too!

I kinda understand what you went through,

Now Am I a disappointment for you too?

 

Big sis,Akka, didi, ane-san!

No matter what languages I ask at least 

Answer me this time,

Was that death rope that much alluring?

 

I thought more about you,

Than ever you could have

Ever thought about me; but

I might say it once again,

I once had an older sister

There's no one to best her,

There’s no one to best her.

 

                                            -GEARDY