Winter here

               Is far and fair

Does not cruelly bite my skin or whip through my very bones as it howls

 

It’s just wet, wet bubbly air and mildly freezing

             Natural i keep desiring a warm body in my bed each night

                                        To run towards when i turn off the heat and light

 

Many come close but disappoint, the world is filled with angry vicious demanding people

Who wants to take that to bed? Not me

I am mostly very happy in my bed, my sleep, my work, my walks,

                                                                         my care for myself, I can stay warm

 

Eating well, playing music, making art, teaching beautiful children, live so close to my mother ocean

 

Just miss you

                     That’s all

                                        I miss you

I like hearing what you think about things i like seeing what others say back

                                                   Miss you

                                                                        All the time

More in confusing times because i always wonder what you are thinking, what you would think           about what I am thinking about

And i can’t forgive myself

That’s where I am stuck

I can’t make peace with how much I miss you                                                    I should not

 

I was wrong to want, to dare to dream

  I was arrogant to assume

                              to adore, so silly to see what I desired, not what is

     I was incorrect to infer as I delved too deep

 

So

I force myself to walk the path of giving you up

 

I pretend                             That you no longer love me yet

                                                                                                               I know you do

                                                       it's just less now

It is the poet in you, he is the one I want not to let go of

The skill in conjuring up images that match melody that opens to heart soaring astounds

Magic

 

Songs powerless to ignore

   Please incoming isn’t only hot vibrant nighttime delights, not only

 

Some

Days

I

Hate

You

Red hot burning raging disgusted fury

Some thoughts bring that momentary poison

 

Ocean takes them from me, easily, every time, waves do speak

Allows me to walk in peace, mercy, increase

                     with or without you

 

How i love, how i strive to leave, how i do not           or; have not as of yet

               He is more exquisite than other men somehow

                                            Mystery who loves riddling and also really loves my heart

 

increases

Who could leave 

          still i try
 

I honor the power & might of a force I cannot name nor never knew no matter what

Winter will end eventually, warmth mounts, all isolation ends, i see much love in little eyes everyday, that’s what counts

Do good where i can, fight back where I cannot, i am upheld in more than this

 

I do not need to know how to know what is true