Shadows I Know Too Well..
After the pieces fell apart,
I gazed into the glass, expecting
A whole reflection, but instead,
I saw a shadow of a love that lost its way.
A reflection that didn't deserve
To be cherished, day by day.
I wondered how you ever loved me,
Or even liked me at all.
Convinced I was never enough,
Bound to shatter, destined to fall.
My eyes scanned every flaw,
Every imperfection, proof that I was
Was never worthy of your affection.
I thought you deserved better,
Someone more divine.
And I could never be that girl for you.
Memories of moments that seemed
Insignificant to you now haunt me,
A bittersweet refrain.
I sit in anguish, wondering
How you even tolerated me.
Thoughts of moments I spent with you
Bring only sorrow and pain.
I think about how foolish I looked,
How blind I was.
And I'm suddenly swept away
By shame, overwhelmed by regret.
I lose my breath again,
Yet with every heartbeat,
I find a glimmer of strength to begin,
To revive.
What a lie I tell to the world,
The facade I maintain.
Even I know, with every step,
My knees get weaker,
My heart crumbles.