Do you realise what will be will always be

And do you realise what will never be the same

And do you realise what we were put here for

For some to give the glory

And others give the pain

 

I once had a friend

But I wanted more than friendship

Wanted more than he could give

I once had a love

though I wanted more than loving

Wanted more than just to live

 

I once took a path

But I wanted more than footsteps

Wanted more than just to walk

I once had a voice

But I wanted more than words

Wanted more than just to talk

 

I walked out into a world today

Unforgiveness growing in that field of pain

 

You may have taken away my crown

If I was that queen you spoke of now

You got another courtesan on the other side of town

But you and I are wedded in a silent bitter vow

 

Bribe the gypsy and blackmail the begger

Continued deceit hidden in their ledger

Every full moon that passes, a glimpse of yellow

A halo of guilt, you retreat from our forever

 

Blackness of my eyes scar your charred heart

You grieve alone but its always til death to us part

It’s not the dawn you despise but the silver shards

Screams of me bleeding in the attic of your dark

 

And I suppose you will never tell me

That you will think of me sometime

And I suppose you will never say how much you cared

No, you won’t tell me you felt just like I feel

But believe me I can tell you

I have never been so scared

 

And do you realise that the pain has only just begun?

And do you realise that your glory hasn’t been won?

 

So when you realise that without each other

Love is not a game to play

Then you will realise

Why things will never be the same

 

Katy Hughes © 2012