Did you speak ?

Did you tell me something I needed to remember ?

No recollection of the facts impart.

The ribbons that hold the events like glue,wave about in an eternal breeze,

That scatter the memorial seeds.

Ribbons frayed, no longer to hold the knotts of time,

Lost in this gloop !!!

It simply got scattered by the events of my life line,

To be found at another time,

And now stands alone, disconnected like a code, waiting to be broken.

Dot !!   Dot !!    Dot !! ....  ermmm ?????

I've lost the thread of that thought......

Nothing to feel exept remorse,

I simply cannot recall !!

 

Whilst searching in the knotts of my mind,

This strand stood out.

A strand that shines, silver and white, A neon light !!

It's you, and the last time I held you tight.

How the wind howled, the electric light made the room hollow !!

Of closing doors, that whoosh !! and then ....... BANG !!

The echo of voices, faces, that tell me you have no more tomorrows,

The emptiness of life and arms.

The last time I felt you kick in my womb,

As I lay there in that sanitized room !!

Was I fifteen ? sixteen ?..... I think it might have been 1981,

Was it ?????

And now it's gone !!!!

 

Where was I ???

That's not the train I want to ride....

I'm searching for another space and time.

This one ?????

No !!! that's when we danced all night,

Walked home shoeless in the pale moonlight.

Here's the time, the wedding bells peeled,

And confetti fluttered like may blossom, beneath that red umberella !!

And the hits !!  and the lies !!

And the spites !!  and the emotional cries !!

Hits !!    Lies !!   Hits !!    Lies !!

Hits !!   Lies !!    and emotional cries !!!

Dot !!    Dot !!    Dot !!  ....  ermmmmm ???

 

where was I ???

WOW !!!

There's that shopping list from 1989,

Oh !! ....  that's your name !!

That was you with the tresses like a mane.

And that's what time I should have been on that train !!

And OH !!..... I do recall !!

That's where I put the cellotape when I went to the mall !!

But no !!

I cannot find the information you did depart ??

 

I think ..... I think....

This ones you !!

The tone you use, every second in your own special way,

When you tell me that you love me,

giving me a reason to start my day.

I remember that T shirt you wore, the look in your eye,

The warm stillness of your hand in mine.

I remember you told me about your day,

About what you wanted and was going to play.

But where and when eludes me still !!

Dot !!   Dot !!  Dot !!...... ermmmm ???

Maybe i'll find it , whilst untying the knotts,

Maybe ?? ......... or maybe not ??

Nothing to feel exept remorse !!

I just simply cannot recall !!