Finding my family was a blessing from god, but I didn't expect our family to be so destroyed.  Sister against sister and brother against brother. I didnt want to find my family like this. Dont want to regret it but I'm almost there. I been feeling so much pain and hurt since I got here.  Dont even know if I can bear one more heart break.  Wishing momma was here to fix this. Jealous that they knew her, hug her, talked to her, but I dont remember doing those things. Its one thing to actually get to know someone and its another to hear about them. To be honest I don't want to be here.  I rather be by myself and knowing that I will never get my heart broken. But I know momma wants me to stay and get to know them more. Im only doing this for her.

Rip Crystal Denise Cottle