THE CIRCULAR DISEASE

i feel so stressed
others say it's anxiety
DEPRESSED is an epitome to be used
everything around me seems to be dying or losing turgidity
no self-confidence anymore
at the moment life sucks!
i wonder why i made some early decisions
why i forced myself into some communities
i forcibly, try to keep a bright cheerful face but my heart is undergoing a great storm which has fully reached an irreversible violent disaster
trust me
am now the prey
any predator finds me consumable
including suicidal acts
feels like am imbalanced
at this point in life feels like there's no turning back
every sacrifice is worthless
the worst is that it keeps perpertuating and i find means to psych myself to positivity
Now, the heart is more powerfult than the mind
it says...Let me feel what i'm feeling....it is part of the healing process
what saddens me is....As a Christian it is not easy waiting on the Lord
It has got to do with Faith to pass this test
i believe "everything in life and specifically on earth is temporal"
Jesus take the wheel....because i cannot drive
Shepherd me as i am your sheep....i have lost my way trying to survive on my own and in this circular world.
INDEED
it takes Thy LORD'S sufficient grace to uproot such a disgusting feeling
the feeling is very horrible but,
God's love is unconditional and comforting.
Let's encourage our fellow brethens to hold unto the FAITH of Abraham who loved God.
~Hetty
HAG
September 9, 2015
11:00am