>Day one, I am not doing very well. My international trip was cancelled because money. So I have 2 grand and 2 weeks. going to go look at living in a hotel. Take a break from everything.
>I was wondering if you still have those screws of mine.

A break is going to be exactly what you deserve - try and rest up, take it easy.
Screws?

>Yeah, shiro. 
>tekkonkinkreet

Aaaaaaaaaaah.
I miss you.

>I miss you, too.
>
>Checked in. It's as shitty as I could ever dream.
>tell me something
>
>I want to call you rn

I was definitely sleeping.
Are you all checked in to your hotel?

>Yeah :)
>There was a guerilla hip hop show on the street last night. got up, drank some whiskey went and watched til the cops showed up. 
>I am in love with life a little more.
>How are you

(Laughs) Where in the hell are you?
Im ok

>I'm home, baby. 
>What would make it better than ok?

More hours or higher pay. Not being deflated and living at my mother's. Running away to Pennsylvania. Being motivated to do more than just sleep and gym. Having better skin. Straighter teeth. Smaller jaw/chin. Becoming the bee filter off SnapChat full time.

>Kuro,
>There's more to life than running away. Sometimes you have to let the good come to you. Like a fluid, let life fill you up instead of exhausting yourself in the chase of greener grass and beautiful men.
>Ollie, of all people, taught me that. A man with an unscratchable itch of personal suffering. A man who has killed 12 in his line of work and turned away from God. HE told ME this. 'take your girl out for dinner even if you have food at home. Even if times are tough and you're not sure when more work will come in. You have to remind yourself that life can be good.'

_ <3

>x
>I have to ask tho
>Why Pennsylvania?

Greener grass and beautiful men.

>

>Well,
>My dad, I think, thinks that I'm gonna kill myself.
>Whatchu doin tinnite

Sleeping. Being a grump. 

>Let me buy you dinner.
>

Frickin' people

>Which people
>Are they true fricks

FOREVER

>Forever a beb

Why would your father think you're going to kill yourself?

>Well Im just an emotional git. 
>So probably that.

That was not my firsrt thought when you checked into a hotel, but people do do that
How is hotel life treating thou?

>Mf I am worried about the despair creeping in
>The hotel is doing the best it reasonably can

Feeling sick today - too much caffeine, not enough hydration and lack of sleep.
What's causing the despair?

>When in doubt, crank up the drip.
>Full moon anxiousness, self doubt re: writings, inability to memorize anything

Give yourself a break

>I yam. A two week break.
>
>I seriously miss you, kuro

Same here, mi amigo.

>

>Suicide party tomorrow night? Real fuckin late

Im working the next few days. Besides, I don't want either of us to die.

>Work? Pfft, there's living to do; there's dying to do. You're still invited.

What are you doing with your time out there?

>Right now?

I guess, and in general.

>I spend a great deal of time biting my tongue, honestly. Trying not to say excessively vulnerable things to the people I care about. 
>Drinking, writing, fucking, fighting -- but no one wants most of those.
>I feel obsolete sometimes, but at least I still feel.

Never stop feeling
You are a fucking beautiful specimen 

>xo
>don't hit on me when I'm weak if you can help it.
>(If you do I'll start talking about some truly weird shit, I promise)

I can handle it. Still, okay.

> 
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>I am loathe to people that say "I don't get it." To which I reply "ok, what about it don't you get?" 
>To which they reply with nothing. 
>FURY

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