Q,

You're literally my best friend and the most important person in my life right now.

I am asking you to help me.

You say you will, but you don't.

I told you to make me eat lunch today and yesterday.

You didn't.

We are doing an assignment for health class of counting calories.

My target number is 2600.

I have had 1636 today.

That's almost 1000 too few.

Keep that one in mind.

I don't know if there's something bugging you as well,

because if there is,

for the love of god, just tell me to leave you alone!

And if you want to talk about it,

then say something.

I will listen.

I told you I'm a good listener,

and I'm not one of those people who compares your life to their own.

There has to be a reason that you've started to not care as much.

So thanks for pulling me out of that dark pit before,

but I'm so stupid and clumsy that I've fallen into another one.

I am asking you to help, but you're not trying hard enough.

I'm sorry, but you're really not.

And I hope you know that YOU are the reason I fell.

So thanks a lot for that.

I feel like you are around me more when there's something wrong with YOU,

and then when it's better, you just go away.

Honestly, I don't want to admit it, but I was falling for you,

and I'm not so sure anymore.

 

So I sincerely thank you for helping me adjust to high school,

and pulling me out of that first pit,

and restoring confidence in me.

But, thanks a whole lot for giving me promises you haven't fulfilled,

and leaving me more than I thought you would,

and not trying or caring enough to help me.

For god's sake, Q! I have to eat!

Lucky for you I did anyways, because other people cared enough.