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Water works

 

God's love is unconditional 
but he shut up the seas behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb
and set its doors and bars in place
when he said, " This far you may come and no farther; here is where your proud waves halt. 

So I won't let you drown me
as your tears fill the dead living room
I proceed to leave. 
When I was younger I would stay
and try my hardest to row, row, 
row gently down a turbulent stream
but now I'm grown I'm jumping ship
relation is in the past

I admit I was a pain in the...
(cut it off not just because I was advised to rhyme)
When we were together I thought I was the problem
and maybe I was
however, I was confused into believing I was worthless.
No, no, I'm not throwing shots

Been fired from so many jobs
we ate stale bread dipped in Kool-aid salty with tears
torn apart hearts never breaking even
and even though this is our omega 
alpha love you always
praying you find someone who loves you beta
because I can only love you up to this point.
Your water works won't keep me here

But, but what if,
what if we retraced our steps
going forward to way back when
yeah, way back when we laughed with authentic smiles, glimmering eyes and funny little pig snorts.
Yeah, let's go way, way, way back to when we
held hands and felt our souls connect
Intimacy was defined as into me you see though fully clothed

But butt naked we found each other in the dark one late night
we groped each other timidly undercover under covers
until that sunny 'afternoon delight' triple x interaction that
left us with a bitter pill to swallow in place of the forgotten contraceptive pill.
I should have worn the golden ticket but we wanted to be rough riders
but we still ended up in a reenactment of the Trojan war.

We went to war for a woman,
shouda, couda, wouda been my bouncing beautiful baby girl.
You opted for abortion, I said no yet you went behind my back 
Your water broke - our relationship sank.
Woman you, you, you...all I could do was weep for my unborn daughter,
my baby that I could only love up to a certain point
because I'll never have the opportunity to
feel her warmth, hear her first words, see her first steps

But you say I knew you first
and we can take baby steps to rebuild what we once had.
Sad to say but thank God we had a common law affair 
or we might have been in court signing papers.

Let's just row our boat in the friend zone
because right now I can't bring myself to love you pass this point
Let's just stay in shallow waters
so your water works won't drown me

 

lovedivorcesadness

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