" how lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard" 
Winnie the pooh
To you this is just a line said by a character on a kids TV show but to me this is a quote with a meaning so deep that if u don't have a mind that can understand it you will never understand it yourself.
I don't think anyone ever understood how depression can affect the way you look at things, if you were to ask someone with depression what they think Winnie the pooh ment when he said that quote they would say " he ment that he had so many good things going on yet he had such a hard time dealing with life that it was so hard to say goodbye to it all to everyone to everything", but if you were to ask some ordinary person the answer you would get is " he has such a great life and he is so happy that what he ment by that was he hopes he will never have to say goodbye". The world has turned suicide and depression into something that is pathetic and stupid and something for attention but little do they know that what they are saying is what is keeping everyone who is suicidal or depressed quite they don't wanna talk just in case they get judged so the reason no one knew they were struggling was cause they made fun of the fact or they judged the fact that they were struggling.
So suicide is not pathetic it is not stupid nor is it for attention, it is because someone was hurt so bad they broke and could not see a future for themselves they could not see any other escape from the pain the never ending state of anxiety and depression but for ending the life they thought they never deserved.
Some people say that the one's who cut are the actual pathetic one's but the one's who cut or self-harm are just trying to get ride of the pain or not let anyone but themselves cause the pain, and to me I would prefer walking in on someone self harming then walking in on someone hanging from their sealing fan, neither of them are an ideal situation but that is my opinion.
I am also struggling with depression and anxiety and being suicidal so don't tell me that I don't know how you feel because I know it all to well, I know the feeling of draging the blade along your skin watching the red flood out the numbness. I'm not saying any of this is right or ok I'm just stating that it is real it is happening and you are just sitting back and laughing at everyone going through it which makes you the pathetic one's.